UNPACKING THE BAGGAGE
One morning I’ll get up and I’ll click delete on Estee’s View, I won’t need it any longer. This has been healing, digging deep into the pages of my soul, delving into who I really am. So many shades of Red…from the womb to the present.
My latest discovery is that I can say farewell to adrenalin. You are truly no longer needed in my life. Years of being too much, proving yourself to someone over and over is the most toxic thing you can do to yourself because it‘s never enough. It takes its toll and it’s hard to fix.
This week gave me closure on another chapter of my life and I found out happily it can be repaired, it’s another part of the healing process. I can still meet the challenge but my heart is no longer there, if it ever was. I took the “do one thing daily that scares you” to the next dimension! I can face my fears and handle what life throws at me, nothing more to prove there.
I’ve learned that we all have baggage, there is not one of us who have lived a life that doesn’t have something to unpack. I hope I can learn patience, I’ve never considered it a virtue and yes I’m wired a little differently.
So farewell to these beautiful shores, I have no need to visit you again and I won’t be looking back. You see, I have someone who loves me just the way I am…. I am enough. Well, maybe just a little too much!
When you love someone, that’s what you do…help them unpack!
copyright Es-tee Miller