SO MAYBE I’M JUST AN ANGEL?
My Mom always told me if they heard noise, sirens, laughing, somehow I would be in the middle of it all. I can remember when I was four running out to save a dog that had run onto the road and I ran right after him. I had no thought for the oncoming truck, I only knew I had to grab that dog, he didn’t survive but I did. It has seemed that all my life that I’ve been dancing on the edge of fire or what some people might call drama. I have never thought of it as a negative factor.
It has delivered me to people and circumstances that have truly needed me and vice versa. I’ve read that people that attract drama cannot meditate because they are afraid to close their eyes and let their mind settle, that emotions will swell up inside them and it will be unbearable. This is simply not true, I can put myself into a sleep state for an hour, calm myself and reflect more than most people I have ever known. I’ve addressed almost every raw emotion that I’ve had hidden deep in my soul, talked to them and soothed them all, well most of them.
Do I consider the people I’ve attracted toxic? Some perhaps, but the majority have been wonderful people who I’ve learned lots from and helped me to grow into a better human being. We are just people after all. Am I creating all of this, attracting it? No I don’t buy that, instead I like this thought, it’s a spiritual point of view. Drama is often a comfortable state of existence for angels who are incarnated on earth. In the angel realm, despite the fact they’re obviously celestial beings possessed of divine knowledge, there is always the fight between good and evil.
So maybe I’m just an angel? I can have stillness, inner peace, and a touch of Zen anytime I want to!
copyright Es-tee Miller