So maybe I’m just an angel?


My Mom always told me if they heard noise, sirens, laughing, somehow I would be in the middle of  it all. I can remember when I was four running out to save a dog that had run onto the road and I ran right after him. I had no thought for the oncoming truck, I only knew I had to grab that dog, he didn’t survive but I did. It has seemed that all my life that I’ve been dancing on the edge of fire or what some people might call drama. I have never thought of it as a negative factor.

It has delivered me to people and circumstances that have truly needed me and vice versa. I’ve read that people that attract drama cannot meditate because they are afraid to close their eyes and let their mind settle, that emotions will swell up inside them and it will be unbearable. This is simply not true, I can put myself into a sleep state for an hour, calm myself and reflect more than most people I have ever known. I’ve addressed almost every raw emotion that I’ve had hidden deep in my soul, talked to them and soothed them all, well most of them.

Do I consider the people I’ve attracted toxic? Some perhaps, but the majority have been wonderful people who I’ve learned lots from and helped me to grow into a better human being. We are just people after all. Am I creating all of this, attracting it? No I don’t buy that,  instead I like this thought, it’s a spiritual point of view. Drama is often a comfortable state of existence for angels who are incarnated on earth. In the angel realm, despite the fact they’re obviously celestial beings possessed of divine knowledge, there is always the fight between good and evil.

So maybe I’m  just an angel? I can have stillness, inner peace, and a touch of Zen anytime I want to!

copyright Es-tee Miller

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10 Responses to SO MAYBE I’M JUST AN ANGEL?

  1. le Ousieau Bleu says:

    Have you ever considered like the Wind, People blow into our lives from one direction or another.
    Some times the wind is strong and sometimes the wind is weak and some times we have to seek shelter from that wind but most of the time the wind will blow directly at You and then it is your decision whether You wish to Face the Wind or Not……………..

    And So we continue our voyage as Angels in Training.doing what Angels do……………………

    • Wonderful analogy James! John 3:8 comes to mind…The wind blows wherever it wants. Just as you can hear the wind but can’t tell where it comes from or where it is going, so you can’t explain how people are born of the Spirit…(this is the new living translation which I like very much.. ) 🙂

  2. Dev says:

    No argument from me here..YOU are an angel.Saved me many times! you just keep rockin’ it angelface. Dev

  3. Will Abram says:

    Yes, my dear Estee. You are an Angel. I have felt that right from my first contact with you. High frequencies attract. I want more of you.

    • My dearest Will….frequency is extremely important and depending on the frequency you have you will resonate with people, places, times, things and events that have similar frequency if not identical frequency… You and I are identical, that I believe my dear friend…. Look forward to seeing you! Love Es-tee.

  4. JULES says:

    I can relate to this so well and I’m NOT a drama queen either! But give me an event or circumstance and you can be sure I’ll be close by. My son constantly complains there is always so much drama around me. I love the thought of being an Angel on Earth. ,thank you Es-tee.. Your awesomeness makes my day in the morning. Jules

    • Thank you Jules.. there is drama and then there IS drama. I’ve seen it played out by women very unfairly in relationships and believe me it separates the men from the boys real fast! Men seem to be subconsciously oblivious to it, Women want a man who is in control of himself but maybe at times not SOOO in control. A psychologist friend told me that a woman’s way of testing a man is to see if the man is jealous, insecure, overly-nice, manipulative, self-serving, or basically, worth their trouble…I would agree with that from what I’ve observed.. so when it comes to relationships …tip for the men is to be a man and not manhandled.. 🙂 … It’s all so complicated isn’t it Jules? LOL Bottom line is I don’t like games, love drama in certain areas of my life but essentially …no more games, let’s just be ..with honesty! Namaste my friend!

  5. chanel99 says:

    Wow, for me it was the other way around! my husband was the drama queen. Not Kidding! It was like living with a spoiled teenager, could not pander to him anylonger after 10 long years of trying to make it work and just loving him we parted…. It works both ways!!!!

    • Two people do not get together and stay together unless they have the same or very similar frequency. …finding our soulmates is the quest of each and everyone of us on this planet.. some of us never do….clearing emotional baggage sure helps. It’s only then that we attract that harmonious grid of events, people and yes even soul mates that lead us there…. we are all responsible for our life creations and Chanel I know you will attract your are a beautiful person….Love Es-tee.

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