LOVING SOMEONE ENOUGH TO BARGAIN WITH GOD
I have loved someone enough with all my heart and soul that I would give my life in place of theirs. I have even bargained with God, he didn’t listen. And when that didn’t work I begged him to take both of us. That prayer wasn’t answered either. It made me realize even more so that he has his own plan for each of us individually.
I haven’t asked God for much but I did turn to him in that time of desperate need and perhaps that’s why he chose to let me figure a few things out for myself. I had many one sided conversations with him and most of them ended in solitary tears. I finally decided that if my prayer wasn’t stamped with approval, he was giving me a firm No and he had something else in mind for me.
It’s taken me a long time to learn it’s o.k. to be disappointed when God doesn’t give me what I want, but I must not forget to be grateful when he’s given me what I need.
copyright Es-tee Miller
“Certain thoughts are prayers. There are moments when, whatever be the attitude of the body, the soul is on its knees”. ~Victor Hugo