THE LOOKING GLASS
It’s been awhile since I had a good coffee muse. I had a friend call me yesterday to tell me he was going to stop having his morning coffee, too addictive. I think of it as liquid ambrosia for my morning thoughts, if it’s a habit I’m keeping it. So many emails, literally hundreds wondering what’s happened to me. It’s a long story and UPS Courier has a lot to do with it and I will elaborate on that hopefully in the next couple of days.
It’s nice to wake up daily and have the pain and fog all gone. I am still like a child in a candy shop wondering what good fortune stick hit me and then slowly my lips will curve into an ear to ear grin. I look at recent photographs of myself and sometimes I’m struck with..oh! when did that line show up?..or those eyes are just a little too revealing, it’s almost as though I’m looking at a whole new person and I believe that’s what has happened, I‘ve gone through a metamorphosis of sorts. I’ve been taken apart and put back together inside and out. It’s taken courage to face this new person in the mirror and ask, “Who are you?”…
I realized sadly that for five years I could not look at myself in the mirror, it hurt me so much to see all that pain reflected back at me. It took courage to face this stranger and as I stared at her I knew that the growing process to get here had been a rewarding journey. I can say once again that the face that reflects back at me is the person who I am today.
copyright Es-tee Miller