It’s been awhile since I had a good coffee muse. I had a friend call me yesterday to tell me he was going to stop having his morning coffee, too addictive. I think of it as liquid ambrosia for my morning thoughts, if it’s a habit I’m keeping it. So many emails, literally hundreds wondering what’s happened to me. It’s a long story and UPS Courier has a lot to do with it and I will elaborate on that hopefully in the next couple of days.

It’s nice to wake up daily and have the pain and fog all gone. I am still like a child in a candy shop wondering what good fortune stick hit me and then slowly my lips will curve into an ear to ear grin. I look at recent photographs of myself and sometimes I’m struck with..oh! when did that line show up?..or those eyes are just a little too revealing, it’s almost as though I’m looking at a whole new person and I believe that’s what has happened, I‘ve gone through a metamorphosis of sorts. I’ve been taken apart and put back together inside and out. It’s taken courage to face this new person in the mirror and ask, “Who are you?”…

I realized sadly that for five years I could not look at myself in the mirror, it hurt me so much to see all that pain reflected back at me. It took courage to face this stranger and as I stared at her I knew that the growing process to get here had been a rewarding journey. I can say once again that the face that reflects back at me is the person who I am today.

copyright Es-tee Miller

“Nothing ever really goes away–it just changes into something else. Something beautiful.” ..Sarah Ockler

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I'm a stargazing,skywatching,storm loving, sungazing addict. Environmentalist, political blogger, professional photographer, writer, favourite quote is: "If the sight of the blue skies fills you with joy, if a blade of grass springing up in the fields has power to move you, if the simple things of nature have a message that you understand, rejoice, for your soul is alive". ~ Eleonora Duse ~ soul is definitely alive.
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4 Responses to THE LOOKING GLASS

  1. le Ousieau Bleu says:

    And there are more changes to come one of them is you will become an Elder and this is a good thing as part of your self worth.
    People Interact with you on Respectful manner and the answers you give are carefully measured from what is right not what is popular.

    But you knew that already.

    And then there is becoming Insular and going into a quieter more reflective life.

    Bien Oui Ma Belle the possibilities are endless if one uses the K.I.S.S.Principal and enjoys the process of Metamorphosis and Spread Your Wings and<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

    • Agreed.. would like to hold off on the Elder part and enjoy my youth a little bit longer.. :-).. Love the K.I.S.S. Principal.. it’s established etiquette…Je vous remercie pour vos paroles de sagesse…

  2. Jules says:

    I’m always amazed at your perspective and way of placing things. It’s always different and very enlightening. Thank you again for sharing your life with us. Special lights like yours deserve to shine and let the world bask in it. Love Jules.

  3. Leo says:

    Very introspective! some of us never get this far. Leo

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