I met a gentleman on line many, many years ago through a good friend of mine. We began by sending jokes, quotes and our thoughts to each other and it deepened into a very special on line friendship. We still communicate maybe not as frequently but we both know that each of us is just a keyboard away when we feel the need to “talk”.

I had expressed to him recently that I use the word okay a lot these days meaning that “it’ll do”! I told him I was looking forward to the days if they ever come again when I will shout out fantastic, bloody good, terrific, etc. etc. I think as we get older we lose the joy juice. Never thought it would happen. I equated it to writing…it’s not something that you can just sit down and do.. you have to tap into the sentiment you are thinking about with words and passion!

His response was..”I understand exactly what you mean, in fact I feel that I’ve understood every Goddam’ thing you’ve ever said to me since you came into my life”..he also expressed that my present situation was something to treasure for now, in the hope and belief that it may build into recovering some of the “joy juice” that I feel is missing in my life just now.

What sage advice! and I loved his words that put it so aptly..such revelation of inner feeling is just not to be had like water from a tap. Isn’t that the truth!

So I shall enjoy these stages of recovery and relish them and as my dear friend says …the joy is just around the corner!

copyright Es-tee Miller

“I use the word okay a lot these days, guess it means “it’ll do”! ….

About redcontroversy

I'm a stargazing,skywatching,storm loving, sungazing addict. Environmentalist, political blogger, professional photographer, writer, favourite quote is: "If the sight of the blue skies fills you with joy, if a blade of grass springing up in the fields has power to move you, if the simple things of nature have a message that you understand, rejoice, for your soul is alive". ~ Eleonora Duse ~ soul is definitely alive.
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  1. Jack Millans says:

    Excellent post Estee! I know exactly what you mean. I like the idea of you recovering and relishing just where you are and taking it one day a time.

  2. Juliana C. says:

    Love your blog Estee! It always seems you put into words exactly what I’m feeling that day it shows up in my mail! Thank you for sharing and I agree with your friend about your words making so much sense.

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